Yayy New Blog

So i have new blog in the works. Its all about makeup and beauty. Super excited. My friend to me that i should do it so i said why they hell not. Oh and i might be doing youtube videos too but we'll see. As soon as im done organizing it and setting it up i will let you know and post a blog about it here so you cango check if you want to. I will still be keeping this one up if you actually still read it so yeah. I'm super excited. Yayyy so stay tuned for that.

Starting fresh

New Job, New Attitude, New Ideas.

Trying a natural approach to beauty.

DIYing alotttt of stuff. Wish me Luck.

Muahz

A sucky way to spend a sunday

Back in the hospital. Waiting for my labs to come back for my blood to see if I need another shot. Alone. Tired. Super fun. Lol.

Back to the basics

So i think im going to get back into doing what i love. So im going to try to make a seperate blog for all my makeup and beauty stuff. I love it and i plan on spending my time doing just that. I want to be able to feel like i have something to show for and it will be my hobby. And i plan on making it legit and although i dont have the money right now to buy non-stop things i think just posting different looks so that i can look back and see my progress. What im good at, and what i need work at. So i think it will be nice. So yeah. As soon as thats up i will post up more about that. This is my first step in doing what i want to do. I also kind of want to start doing youtube videos but we'll see about that. Yayyyyy to doing what you love :)

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I didn't know you very long but I was in love with you from the start and I miss you already.

I feel.....

Recently I've been feeling nothing. At all. Nothing makes me happy, nothing makes me smile like it used to. Not even makeup and for me that's surprising. I just feel like my whole world is falling apart and I dont really know how to fix it right about now. I wish I knew how to make myself better sigh

And where am i now??

Sometimes you have to sit back and just wonder about everything. At the ripe old age of 22 im engaged to be married but out of my life I want so much more. I have no job, no money and I still live at home with my mother. And although I should be happy that I have a family that loves me, a fiance who adores me and an extended family that's happy to welcome me in as there own I can't help but think I've failed so many times in my life already what makes me think this time wont be any different. So many people my age are graduating from college with a degree in the field that they love and I still haven't exactly figured anything out. I was excited to work in the criminal justice field but after seeing the casey anthony trial and her being set free I lost all faith. And although I realize that she was found not guilty by 12 of her "Peers" it does not make me feel so good about the justice system so for the time being I've strayed away from that path. I'm confused. So confused. But I guess I will never really know what I want to do until I actually start doing something. Sigh. This is my life.

Ramblings

So recently I've been thinking. Alot. Which sometimes isn't the greatest idea but hey, I need to do it. I am now a college student. I do online courses because I was never much of a ordinary child in the sense of school. Im studying criminal justice which is a passion of mine besides makeup. The funny thing was that I started this blog as a makeup blog and its slowly but surely turning more into a personal place to vent for me. So im getting my bachelors in Criminal Justice with a concentration in Homeland Security ie counterterrorism. Something I've always wanted to learn more about and get into the field of so hopefully this isn't a waste of 4 years.
Im also engaged and I know that in the near future I will be a married women. People say im too young but everybodies life is different and I always wanted to be a young wife and a young mother and it seems of all the things in my life to go right it would be the young wife thing..lol. And through it all Rob has been a great guy, even when I have my mental breakdowns and get all weird on him he still knows how to calm me down and hold me and stuff. Its weird but I've never felt so comfortable with anybody besides him. And the fact that I've been with this man for the longest time I've ever been with anybody else means something. Usually I get bored to say the least and just through guys away. I know that sounds bad but its true. I've always done that. Don't know why I just do. And I can honestly say after almost 2 years I am in love with him. Im content. I don't need the thrill of a new guy every few months. Knowing that when I wake up in the morning on any given day I don't have to look perfect, I can be in sweats and a tanktop and he'll still think im one of the most beautiful girls in the world is amazing.

I also want to say that if anybody who reads my blog watched viva la bam or watches the jackass movies that Ryan Dunn passed away the other day. He will be greatly missed as he always made me laugh when watching him. You will live on in the crew and the shows. May you rest in peace.

Officially Engaged

Yesterday was fantastic. So here's how it went. It was after we spent all morning fishing we went home, got some food, I took a nap and he used the computer. We had gotten back up to go fishing some more. We went to go fishing for carp the last time. Rob asked me to go get something out of the car so I went. When I came back he asked me to reel in one of his rocks. When it came up I was confused to as what was on the end cause it didn't look like a hook or anything. It was covered in green stuff so as I pulled it closer I was like holy crap. I looked at rob like what the hell and he had a big smile on his face. Its beautiful. Its too small for my finger so were going to get it sized but I can't wait to wear it. Its simple and small but I'm happy with it. So here's the picture of it in the box since I can't wear it yet..lol.
And I caught my first fish everrrrrr lol. So it was a fantastic day all the way around..hahahaha. were looking at a july 4th wedding next year hopefully. That way we can celebrate with the fireworks.

Its been a interesting few weeks.

Helloooo all. I know, im a terrible blogger. I've been dealing with personal issues. Never home anymore so im hardly near a computer. Or at least one I can use. So yeah. I've been a busy busy girl. I bought a android and im in loveeeeeeeeeee. I used to be team blackberry all the way but now all I want is to spend time with this lovely phone. Its amazing and that's hard for me to say considering I love my blackberry. And I've been working crazy hours at work. Im actually finishing up a 12 hr shift today and I have a 10 hr shift tomorrow. At least tomorrow is time and a half so at least Im making money now. I actually officially got asked to be here fulltime so that's fantastic. I recently applied to a few other jobs so I can save the money so me and rob can move into our own place together and have the wedding. I will be blogging a lot more now that I have this fancy blogger app on my phone now. I never figured out why they never came out with one for blackberry.hmmmm.