To You,

You are the one thing on my mind recently.I will never forget about you. If you would have looked more like him or me. If i made the right decision. I do hope you forgive me. I swear on everything i love i thought it would be best for you. If you knew what i had to deal with i doubt you would have wanted to be here for that. I know they say that it would have been love either way but i never wanted to put you through this. I Love You. Undoubtly. You will be here when the time is right for both of us. I hope you understand. I really do. I think about you everyday and hope you are doing well. I know its weird to be writting about this, but i need to. I have to. I know you won't read it but i can't keep it inside all the time. That had to be the hardest thing i've ever had to do. To give you up. To let you go. I knew that later in life i might regret it. I hope you forgive me. I hope you still know that mommy would have loved you completly. mommy loved you when i found out that you were inside me. And so did daddy. I know that much was true. By this time i would have had you in my arms. Walking up to your smiling face..hard to imagine but i was looking forward to hearing you cry..lol. To whoever you would have been i know you would have been great. I still love you and think about you everyday. I hope you know that. I'm sorry. And i hope you forgive me for what i have done. One day you will understand. I hope. I Love You.

Sincerly,
Mommy
June 25, 2010