I miss him

On sunday, i lost one of the most important people in my life. I've been holding most of my feelings inside because i suck at expressing myself. My grandfather meant the world to me. He was more like my father than my grandfather as i grew up. Him being gone hurts me so much. I cry randomly and even though i know he's not suffering it is amazingly hard to know hes gone. I'm so heartbroken and recently all I've been doing is cooking. I don't know why but that's all. Jesse's been with me and has really helped me cope recently but i don't know. It's so weird without him here. I knew he was going to pass on at some point but i never thought it would be this soon. He has been the reason for me doing everything i have done. He was my inspiration. The person that has made me strong. And i know he was proud of everything i have done and everything i will do. And i know everything will be in memory of him. Recently i haven't been sleeping as well as i used to and i guess i had so much more to say to him. Growing up we didn't have the normal grandfather/daughter type of relationship i guess but i was proud that he was mine. He taught me alot about hard work and i will always owe that to him. His love for his wife and children was something that i will try to duplicate. He fought to make my life better in war and his own life and i am eternally grateful for that fact. He will always be my hero. In my heart he will live forever. May you rest in peace grandpa. I will love you forever. [Gilbert Law Mitchell 1927-2009]