College Bound! Finally!

So, as this is a new year and all that good shit, i've decided that if im ever going to get anywhere in this life i'm going to have to do it myself. So i have decided to get my bachelors degree in sociology. The option of careers when i graduate is amazing and the school i hope to be attending will be helping me get set up in one when i graduate. 4 years of schooling is ahead of me and im happy to be doing this. To have another reason to actually get up in the morning will be good. I need something to do to move myself forward and i've been stalling wayyy to much. I want to do a double major but the school i will be attending doesnt have the other major i want so we'll see. Maybe i will, maybe i wont. I'm going to use some of the money from my taxes to buy a new laptop because my ex and me got in a fight and i ended up leaving my old broken in in Las Vegas :( Oh, well. I'll get a new better one. I think it's an online program which is pretty cool seeing as i don't have to go to the campus everyday unless i have to talk to an advisor or something. Tomorrow i plan on going to my high school and getting a copy of my transcript so i can get this rolling. I'm so proud of myself for even wanting to do this. I hate only having a high school diploma. I feel so inadequate. When i joined the navy my JROTC major told me i was too smart to join the military. I guess everything comes back around...lol.
In other news the weather in boston has been amazing these last couple of days. All sunny and warm and stuff. I love warm days and even though im like never up in the morning when the sun is coming through the window i still love seeing the sun. It makes me happy. And its getting darker later which means the spring/summer is coming. I love the winter, dont get me wrong but after a while it just gets boring having to put on layers after layers of clothes, especially in the northeast.
Me and the love are doing really well. I can't believe its almost going to be 6 months at the end of this month. I still remember the first time we actually went out and the first time we kissed and when he officially asked me to be his girlfriend. The funny thing is neither one of us can actually remember the offical date we became a couple. I made up a date at the end of september and thats pretty much what i've been going off of..lol.He's cool with it and so am i. He makes me smile like no end even when im super aggrivated with him. We've decided that tattoos are in our future. He has made the biggest impact in my life even though we've only been together for such a short period of time. He has this quality to him that i just cant seem to get away from. He pretty much fixed me from the relationship i was in before and i know people say that you shouldn't have another person make you whole or fix you but i needed someone to prove to me that i was still the girl i thought i was before him. So i thank him for everything he has done for me. I not only love him but i am totally IN Love with him and i tell him this everyday.

Feb. 17, 2010

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Check them both out :)

Feb 16, 2010

So, it's snowing here in the lovely city of boston once again. I really dispise the snow after a while.It gets so annoying. So i did a lovely smokey/porn star look. Lol.

Tomorrow i'm going to a orientation for this medical class thats free so i'm happy about that. I only have 4 months to go before i turn 21 so i'm trying to get my life back to where it was if not better. Hopefully i can go on vacation for my birthday but we'll see. Adios Ladies. :)

my first one

So recently, all i have been doing is going to chill with the boyfriend when he gets off work. And i swear my makeup has been on point these past few weeks. I fucking love it. Obviously i'm not claiming to be an expert at this stuff butttttt i think im doing a pretty damn good job for someone who's just starting out. So this is the look i did yesterday because we were going to chill with his boy and his boys baby mama at Mystic Pond. Mad fun even though it was kinda chilly. So this is my first face of the day. I know the quality sucks but this is all i have.

It sucks though because i don't have my camera anymore so all i have is my blackberry and must i admit it does not do it justice whatsoever. But it looked so good in real life..lol. Technically this is my look from yesterday but still..lol.

Eyes:

All that Glitters(MAC)

And Some random shadows from the costal scents 88 pallette

LashMaxx Mascara(Black)

Blacktrack Fluidline

And some random silverly eyeliner for my waterline

Face:

Dream Matte Mousse(Carmel Dark 2)

Studio Finish Concealer NC45

Bare Minerals Foundation(powder) in Medium Tan

Gingerly Blush(MAC)

Lips:

Burts Bees Beeswax LipBalm(This shit is awsome)

Avon plump pout in luscious mauve

Philosophy Purity & Update

This stuff is absolutely amazing. I've seen a few reviews for this before and i found that my mom had it in the cabinet. I decided to try it and i must say i love it. It removes all the makeup i wear on a daily basis and i dont feel like there is a residue left on my face after rinsing. It makes my face feel super smooth even before i put moisturizer on and usually my face gets all tight. I have combination/oily skin. This is what the philosophy website says about it.

"Purity made simple is an award-winning, one step facial cleanser, that removes makeup, cleanses, tones and lightly hydrates the skin. this facial cleanser rapidly dissolves dirt, oil and makeup to deep clean pores while maintaning the skin's proper moisture levels. Purity made simple is gentle enough for the eye area and even the most sensitive skin."

Yes, i know i've been mia for a while i've just been dealing with some issues in my life. I moved back to boston to be with my family and me and the hubby have divorced pretty much. I'm just getting back to who i was before i met him because i realized i changed so much from who i was. It was a good idea to leave each other and im happy with my decision to move back. As far as i know he's happy now and so am i. Getting back into my makeup and just living my life like i want to. I might make another post later but i plan on getting back into blogging on a regular basis very soon.

Peace and Love

Bipolar Disorder

" We all have our ups and downs, our "off" days and our "on" days, but if you're suffering from bipolar disorder, these peaks and valleys are more severe. The symptoms of bipolar disorder can hurt your job and school performance, damage your relationships, and disrupt your daily life. And although bipolar disorder is treatable, many people don’t recognize the warning signs and get the help they need. Since bipolar disorder tends to worsen without treatment, it’s important to learn what the symptoms look like. Recognizing the problem is the first step to getting it under control."

I go off about the littlest things and it really does make it harder to keep my love. I take it out on him so many times and i do realize that i need help. I don't want to lose him over some medical imbalance in my head.This is so fucked up. I'm trying to make it better but it's soooo hard. I will get help as soon as i get the medical coverage. I will. I promise. I was on medication before and it made me feel ten times better, so did working out and working in general but i can't afford it right now. I love him and i will make this work. For the better i will make this work. Bipolar Disorder is a serious medical condition. I've even been so down that i have wanted to kill myself. I will get through this at some time.

"Bipolar disorder (also known as manic depression) causes serious shifts in a person’s mood, energy, thinking, and behavior – from the highs of mania on one extreme, to the lows of depression on the other. More than just a fleeting good or bad mood, the cycles of bipolar disorder last for days, weeks, or months. And unlike ordinary mood swings, the mood changes of bipolar disorder are so intense that they interfere with your ability to function."

http://www.helpguide.org/mental/bipolar_disorder_symptoms_treatment.htm

Date Night with the Husband

So tonight me and my love went to see Funny People. It was a pretty good movie.Not as funny as i thought it would be but it was still pretty good. I did alot of thinking during the movie because it does make you think. I'm still getting used to living in such a casino town where mostly everything is 24hrs. The movie theaters was inside a casino/hotel place not to far from where we are staying for the time being. I'm also still looking for a job and a school to go to. We had to pick the city with the highest unemployment rate in the country.Go figure.I love being here though. Such a change from Boston but in a good way. I still can't believe that me and him actually did it, went cross country but i'm glad we did. The best decision that me and him could have ever made. Getting settled in very steadily but im very proud of me and him. I don't have a camera yet but soon.And im getting a new phone very soon as well sooooooo yeah. Ohh and me and the hubby are trying to have a baby so wish us luck. Some may say we're young but i'm soo ready for this in our life. Ain't no better time than the present. So im gonna get ready for bed. Good Nite Bitches