Bipolar Disorder

" We all have our ups and downs, our "off" days and our "on" days, but if you're suffering from bipolar disorder, these peaks and valleys are more severe. The symptoms of bipolar disorder can hurt your job and school performance, damage your relationships, and disrupt your daily life. And although bipolar disorder is treatable, many people don’t recognize the warning signs and get the help they need. Since bipolar disorder tends to worsen without treatment, it’s important to learn what the symptoms look like. Recognizing the problem is the first step to getting it under control."

I go off about the littlest things and it really does make it harder to keep my love. I take it out on him so many times and i do realize that i need help. I don't want to lose him over some medical imbalance in my head.This is so fucked up. I'm trying to make it better but it's soooo hard. I will get help as soon as i get the medical coverage. I will. I promise. I was on medication before and it made me feel ten times better, so did working out and working in general but i can't afford it right now. I love him and i will make this work. For the better i will make this work. Bipolar Disorder is a serious medical condition. I've even been so down that i have wanted to kill myself. I will get through this at some time.

"Bipolar disorder (also known as manic depression) causes serious shifts in a person’s mood, energy, thinking, and behavior – from the highs of mania on one extreme, to the lows of depression on the other. More than just a fleeting good or bad mood, the cycles of bipolar disorder last for days, weeks, or months. And unlike ordinary mood swings, the mood changes of bipolar disorder are so intense that they interfere with your ability to function."

http://www.helpguide.org/mental/bipolar_disorder_symptoms_treatment.htm