Yayy New Blog

So i have new blog in the works. Its all about makeup and beauty. Super excited. My friend to me that i should do it so i said why they hell not. Oh and i might be doing youtube videos too but we'll see. As soon as im done organizing it and setting it up i will let you know and post a blog about it here so you cango check if you want to. I will still be keeping this one up if you actually still read it so yeah. I'm super excited. Yayyy so stay tuned for that.

Starting fresh

New Job, New Attitude, New Ideas.

Trying a natural approach to beauty.

DIYing alotttt of stuff. Wish me Luck.

Muahz

A sucky way to spend a sunday

Back in the hospital. Waiting for my labs to come back for my blood to see if I need another shot. Alone. Tired. Super fun. Lol.

Back to the basics

So i think im going to get back into doing what i love. So im going to try to make a seperate blog for all my makeup and beauty stuff. I love it and i plan on spending my time doing just that. I want to be able to feel like i have something to show for and it will be my hobby. And i plan on making it legit and although i dont have the money right now to buy non-stop things i think just posting different looks so that i can look back and see my progress. What im good at, and what i need work at. So i think it will be nice. So yeah. As soon as thats up i will post up more about that. This is my first step in doing what i want to do. I also kind of want to start doing youtube videos but we'll see about that. Yayyyyy to doing what you love :)

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I didn't know you very long but I was in love with you from the start and I miss you already.

I feel.....

Recently I've been feeling nothing. At all. Nothing makes me happy, nothing makes me smile like it used to. Not even makeup and for me that's surprising. I just feel like my whole world is falling apart and I dont really know how to fix it right about now. I wish I knew how to make myself better sigh

And where am i now??

Sometimes you have to sit back and just wonder about everything. At the ripe old age of 22 im engaged to be married but out of my life I want so much more. I have no job, no money and I still live at home with my mother. And although I should be happy that I have a family that loves me, a fiance who adores me and an extended family that's happy to welcome me in as there own I can't help but think I've failed so many times in my life already what makes me think this time wont be any different. So many people my age are graduating from college with a degree in the field that they love and I still haven't exactly figured anything out. I was excited to work in the criminal justice field but after seeing the casey anthony trial and her being set free I lost all faith. And although I realize that she was found not guilty by 12 of her "Peers" it does not make me feel so good about the justice system so for the time being I've strayed away from that path. I'm confused. So confused. But I guess I will never really know what I want to do until I actually start doing something. Sigh. This is my life.

Ramblings

So recently I've been thinking. Alot. Which sometimes isn't the greatest idea but hey, I need to do it. I am now a college student. I do online courses because I was never much of a ordinary child in the sense of school. Im studying criminal justice which is a passion of mine besides makeup. The funny thing was that I started this blog as a makeup blog and its slowly but surely turning more into a personal place to vent for me. So im getting my bachelors in Criminal Justice with a concentration in Homeland Security ie counterterrorism. Something I've always wanted to learn more about and get into the field of so hopefully this isn't a waste of 4 years.
Im also engaged and I know that in the near future I will be a married women. People say im too young but everybodies life is different and I always wanted to be a young wife and a young mother and it seems of all the things in my life to go right it would be the young wife thing..lol. And through it all Rob has been a great guy, even when I have my mental breakdowns and get all weird on him he still knows how to calm me down and hold me and stuff. Its weird but I've never felt so comfortable with anybody besides him. And the fact that I've been with this man for the longest time I've ever been with anybody else means something. Usually I get bored to say the least and just through guys away. I know that sounds bad but its true. I've always done that. Don't know why I just do. And I can honestly say after almost 2 years I am in love with him. Im content. I don't need the thrill of a new guy every few months. Knowing that when I wake up in the morning on any given day I don't have to look perfect, I can be in sweats and a tanktop and he'll still think im one of the most beautiful girls in the world is amazing.

I also want to say that if anybody who reads my blog watched viva la bam or watches the jackass movies that Ryan Dunn passed away the other day. He will be greatly missed as he always made me laugh when watching him. You will live on in the crew and the shows. May you rest in peace.

Officially Engaged

Yesterday was fantastic. So here's how it went. It was after we spent all morning fishing we went home, got some food, I took a nap and he used the computer. We had gotten back up to go fishing some more. We went to go fishing for carp the last time. Rob asked me to go get something out of the car so I went. When I came back he asked me to reel in one of his rocks. When it came up I was confused to as what was on the end cause it didn't look like a hook or anything. It was covered in green stuff so as I pulled it closer I was like holy crap. I looked at rob like what the hell and he had a big smile on his face. Its beautiful. Its too small for my finger so were going to get it sized but I can't wait to wear it. Its simple and small but I'm happy with it. So here's the picture of it in the box since I can't wear it yet..lol.
And I caught my first fish everrrrrr lol. So it was a fantastic day all the way around..hahahaha. were looking at a july 4th wedding next year hopefully. That way we can celebrate with the fireworks.

Its been a interesting few weeks.

Helloooo all. I know, im a terrible blogger. I've been dealing with personal issues. Never home anymore so im hardly near a computer. Or at least one I can use. So yeah. I've been a busy busy girl. I bought a android and im in loveeeeeeeeeee. I used to be team blackberry all the way but now all I want is to spend time with this lovely phone. Its amazing and that's hard for me to say considering I love my blackberry. And I've been working crazy hours at work. Im actually finishing up a 12 hr shift today and I have a 10 hr shift tomorrow. At least tomorrow is time and a half so at least Im making money now. I actually officially got asked to be here fulltime so that's fantastic. I recently applied to a few other jobs so I can save the money so me and rob can move into our own place together and have the wedding. I will be blogging a lot more now that I have this fancy blogger app on my phone now. I never figured out why they never came out with one for blackberry.hmmmm.

Hello Loves

I know, i know. I'm a terrible blogger. I've just been working all the time and by the time i get home im either exhausted or getting ready to go over the fiances house, so i haven't really been able to just relax. Working at macy's is going to be detremental to my health and finances lol. I've added quite extensively to my shoe collection and i seem to have a thing for boots. Oh and Happy Thanksgiving. I spent it with the fiances family. I bought my first purchase for the wedding and i saw a beautiful white dress sitting on the clearance rack that came out of nowhere it seemed. It was  a 99 dollar dress that because of the 25 percent of deal thats going on until the 6th of december plus my 20 percent employee discount on top of the fact that it was 65 percent off to begin with i will pretty much be getting that dress for super freaking cheap. I'm all about saving money. In other good news guess what im doing starting january 3, 2011?

I'm getting my cosmetology license. I'm starting at Empire beauty school. You don't understand why this is important to me. I've been thinking about this for years. Since i came back from the navy to be exact. Since 2007. Thats a long fucking time. And im glad that im actually doing it now. Its something that has become a passion of mine and i will be happy to be taking care of myself for once. It will be fanfuckingtabulous. I will graduate(if everything goes according to plan) on April 7, 2012. I might have to push back my wedding but we'll see. Since he was baptized Albanian Orthodox im pretty sure there are different things we have to do than what i wanted but im doing my research. If anybody has any clue let me know because i am beyond clueless. But im going to cut this post short cause i feel like absolute crap and i need sleep. Goodnight ladies and gentelman.

I know..I know....

I've been MIA for what seems like forever. Working two jobs, and spending time with my fiance and stuff i've just been exhausted. I'm hardly ever home and i don't have a laptop anymore so i really can't blog whenever i want to..lol. On sunday me and the fiance went to see Jackass 3D..that shit was hilariousssssssssss hahahahahaha..We were laughing the whole time. Working at macy's is like a blessing and a curse. I love having my 20 percent off discount and since i have a little tiny bit of a makeup obssesion it's nice to have to pay full price but you know oh well..I'm young, working two jobs so i guess i'm going to enjoy it right now..lol. I bought a new foundation and concealer from Mac and tomorrow morning i might get the Mineralized skin finish or something...i want new eye shadow too..but we'll see..lol. So i should be back in a few weeks. Maybe with some outfits of the day of what i wear to work but we'll seeeeee. Kisses.

Sorry i've been MIA

This is my first real day in the past couple of weeks where i've been off and able to just relaz all day. I've been trying to balance two jobs, one at the temp plae where i waitress and the other one i just started at macys and i officially start tomorrow morning, and spending time with my fiance and all that shit. So this is a short post just to tell you that i'm still here. I have a twitter @_sobeautiful_ so feel free to follow me there and all that jazz. If you have one i will follow you back. Smooches to all of you guys.

Giveaway

The lovely Beverly is having a giveaway on her blog and she's giving away great items. So if you like free makeup go enter. She's beautiful and does amazing makeup. Just click the picture to be taken to her blog.

Upcoming CSN Review

So i was contacted by CSN to do a product review.If you haven't heard of them before they have over 200 stores that sell everything from shoes and handbags to excersise products. You can even buy a bar stool if you want one. Since im getting married and need to whip myself into shape i decided to try one of the excersise dvds so expect that review soon.

Sorry i've been mia for a while. This new job has been kicking my ass with the schedule. I should be back in a while. Thanks.

30 Day Blog Challenge-Day 7

Day 7 - Your dream wedding

Since im actually planning my wedding this one is pretty easy for me. I'm all about simplicity. Everything relaxed and easy. No stress. No fuss. No extra stuff. Black and white with red and silver accents.

Isnt it beautiful? It's called Glen Magna Farms in Danvers and thats where i want to have it. It was going to be on a beach but since my grandma can't walk on sand it's easier this way.

I don't want to buy a normal wedding dress because its cheaper to buy a normal white or cream or ivory dress and i want to wear these cause i don't really do heels that much and Rob doesnt want me to be taller than him so this is the next best thing. And i want to be casual and relaxed. That way i can dance allllll night and my feet wont hurt :)

On other news

 I GOT A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!! Almost a year later i finally have a job. It's a temp position and i pretty much work when i want to. I'm going to be working for this company called event temps where i help cater events. I want to become a waitress until i figure out what i want to do with my life fully and it will be a great way to get experience.

Me and the Fiance went to see The Town on Sunday for our anniversary. Oh Emm Gee, it is so good. I loved it. Some funny as hell parts too. Ben Affleck is an amazing director on top of being a great actor. And because he's actually from boston he doesn't have to fake that lovely boston accent some people seem to have. So i recommend it if you haven't seen it. It was filmed in Charelstown and all over boston so you pretty much get to see the lovely city i live in. Jeremy Renner is fucking hot to me. And it is true. Charelstown is the bank robbery capital of the world. The most bank robbers have come from there than any other place in america. Oh well. Lol. Go see it. Its amazing.

30 Day Blog Challenge-Day 6

Day 6 - A photo of an animal you'd love to keep as a pet.

This is probably going to sound weird. But i have an obssession with big cats but i can't stand small animals most of the time. I've had fish, turtles, cats and dogs but i refuse to have mice, hamsters, snakes or anything like that. It's weird. So in that sense i woul love to have a Snow Leopard. I love them. They look so majestic. I mean, how can you say no to this face. If they ever find a way to domesticate an animal like this i will be more than willing to buy one.

Today is me and my fiances anniversary so i wanted to get this post out fast before we actually went and did something. Tomorrows post most likely wont be from the 30 day challenge but i still want to post something. 

I love you babe. Thanks for sticking by me while i go through a shit load of this stuff. You are the best.

30 Day Blog Challenge-Day 5

Day 5 - A photo of yourself two years ago.

Ahh yes, i had just chopped off all my hair, dyed it jet black and was super happy with it. This was at the end of 2008 i believe right before things started going completly crappy and downhill. I was wearing my ex boyfriends chain and sunnies. Oh well. You live and you learn right?

30 Day Blog Challenge-Day 4

Day 4 - Your favorite photograph of your best friend.

Ahh, my best friend. I actually have a few best friends. Is that okay? I don't care. I'll have as many friends as i want..lol. But I'm only putting up one because i don't have many of my other ones.

That's my baby with the fish(one of many) he caught this summer and his kayak. He loves fishing and he's happy while he does it. He does the whole catch and release thing because he just like catching them. He wants other people to be able to catch them too. That's why i love him. When hes determined, hes determined. lol. I love you pumpkin.




Oh, and thank you to everybody who's following me now. I appreciate it. It makes me feel loved. Big Hugs :D

30 Day Challenge-Day 3

Day 3 - Your idea of the perfect first date

Anything where you get to have fun and talk to each other. No more first dates for me though. Although we still do things like this on occasion. It's all about keeping the love alive and still having fun with each other. I mean in high school all we would do is go to movies and stuff because you spent all day together at school but now that I'm an adult and doing adult things i want something a little bit more fun.

I'm also a big baseball fan Go Red Sox so if it's baseball season that would be awsome. It would be even cooler if it was during the playoffs and we got tickets.